About

Thank you so much for your interest in my zines.

The Queer Lonely Diaries was my first zine. It’s a collection of three interlinked essays written in the spring and summer of 2020. In the first, “The Queer Lonely Diaries”, I attempt to examine queer loneliness as a result of political and social structures, to explore my longing for community and for “friendship as a way of life”, and to make visible the processes by which I came to allow myself to have a voice and to write this zine. In the second, “Becoming Queer”, I retrace my steps and explore how I arrived at queerness relatively late in life, and how this process was shaped both by my life experiences and by my emerging politics. The final essay, “Attachment Femme”, deals with attachment trauma, femme praxis, care work, grief and shame, and with how transformative justice and abolitionist politics have become essential to my sense of livability.

This zine’s dedication reads, “To all my friends”; “to the queer artists, writers and thinkers whose work has helped me become”; and “to my Pleasure Activism group, who made this zine possible, and to adrienne maree brown for writing the book that brought us together”. I owe everything to the people who helped me get here, in ways both large and small. Thank you.

My second zine, Lineage: To My Femme Foremothers, was written in the spring and summer of 2021. It’s subtitled “With and after Minnie Bruce Pratt, Joan Nestle, Dorothy Allison and Amber Hollibaugh”, and in each section I use an excerpt from their work as a point of departure to contextualise my life and try to make sense of the world. The result touches on racial capitalism, border abolition, PIC abolition and transformative justice, family abolition and my ambivalence towards the familial language I use in the title, queer kinship, history, looking for motherers in the archive, femme embodiment, desire, collective struggle and organising, sexuality, shame, social reproduction theory, grief, survivorhood, longing for queer Marxist study groups, what it means to orient myself towards relationality and care, and more. In addition to Joan, Dorothy, Amber and Minnie Bruce, it’s deeply indebted to, and wouldn’t exist without, the works of Alexis Pauline Gumbs, Sophie Lewis, Mariame Kaba, Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, Liat Ben-Moshe, Kathi Weeks, Alexis Shotwell, Rosemary Hennessy, Ela Przybylo and Angela Willey, among many others.

Lineage is dedicated to all of those who welcome strangers, make and sustain collectivities, and otherwise resist the privatisation of care.

In solidarity and with care,

AN